Just because

Dear anonoymous,

Well back in June I wrote a diddy about myself and some pictures..as I have never replied to the rude comment I feel I will do that now. If you try to go back and read what that precious anonymous person wrote you won't find it..as soon as I read it I deleted it. I did not even tell my hubby about it. It hurt me which I am sure that is what that person wanted. I find it intersting that the person would not say who they are maybe a coward?! I mean I am up to disscuss anything with anyone. I have never been close minded or afraid of anyones opinion....I mean heck I even wrote on my personal blog how I felt about abortion oops I mean murder. I thought for sure people would have their opinion about that. But ,no whoever decided to tear me down because I had weight loss surgery and opted to do the EASY thing. Easy?! Adjustable gastric banding is not easy! It has changed every aspect of my life and I mean everything. I have struggled with my weight pretty much all my life. I was always the chubby girl,then as I got older and became the fat girl. I have tried a lot of different diets. At one point my Freshman year of high school I felt good about myself. I had been going to weight watchers off and on and had lost 60 pounds and had kept it off..through my high school years the weight came back slowly but surely. After high school I went the diet pill route which worked only if you took the pills. When I didn't wow was I hungry other wise I walked around on my drug high from the pondimin and redux..which now the FDA says that redux was bad for you..what! But no heart damage from that thankfully. I married troy and after 3 miscarrages and being very depressed food became my way of coping . Just to clear things up eating doesn't take away pain..darn it!! Trust me I wish that I didn't have to have my bionic parts in me but hey I made a decision to live! Is that wrong? I don't think so....If that person was upset because of jealously then I am sorry for you. This has not been an easy road. There are somedays that I wish that I could have just controlled myself but I never felt full..but now I can eat and feel full. It's not like I am going to be walking around a tooth pick. That's not the goal. The goal is to be a good weight for me and to be healthy to live my life as God has intened it to be... So anonoymous if you ever want to talk like a real woman or man to me about my choice please come back...I'm ready for you..My new motto is" hey this is my blog if you don't like it then CLICK OFF" But for everyone else thank you for the bottom of my heart for your support !! To the rest of you unhappy people fix yourself before you tear down others..I realize that it is easier to tear others up if you don't like yourself so go work on yourself look into your heart if you have one and fix it because it it sad and very mean. I feel better..had to get that off my chest. As you can see I have trouble letting go and not carrying around things for months..But I feel better it was a internet therapy session..hehe!